Ugh Love

I went out the other night with a friend. WE were at a pub and got drunk.

I was dancing with this guy i used to date in high school, He too was intoxicated. We danced in the middle of the dance floor by ourselves, everyone aroudn us, we were talking, I was trying to stop him picking a fight with this guy who kept giving him 'looks' he went to kiss me, i say it coming and turned my head so the kiss landed on my cheek. It felt wrong but so right at the same time. I mean i couldnt let him kiss me in the middle of the dancfloor where everyone could see us, and I wouldnt do that To Craig either. I had to walk away from him before things got out of hand.

Then a friend of mine comes up to me and says

"I dont want to sound mean, but when M(the guy) found out you'd had a baby to Craig, he said, I cant beleive she had a baby to that dickhead, i would have given her a baby :-S"

I'm not sure that's a good or bad thing because he's hardly Father material, but theres justsomethinga bout him that I love. Don't get me wrong, I do love Craig. But its possible to partially love someone else when your heart is with osmerone else right?

Im so confused.

I know Craig loves me and I love him. Its jsut love is soo complicated. We've got a baby, a mortagage and a personal loan together. We are pretty much tied together for a LONG time, but I think in my heart I wouldnt stay with him unless I loved him..... Would I?

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